Well, it all starter this afternoon when I just got my UPU appeal results. I got Bachelor of Applied Science (Agro Techno-Entrepreneurship) in UMK (University Malaysia Kelantan). I was actually quite happy with the course they gave me, because I was interested in agriculture/marine ever since Form 5. And also, I was actually quite reluctant to switch to Arts stream as I did not have that interest since young. I really suck at counting money. The college I'm going to is an utter disaster anyway. The first thing when my mom got the news she said: "Aiyo, so far.", and then she walked off. How encouraging could that be? Why would they call me to waste my time to apply if they are not ready to let me go so far. And as I last recall, they are the ones who said I'm not independant. How do you expect me to be independant if you do not let me go. In future, I'd have to leave soon enough, why couldn't they let me prepare for that moment. The more they hold me back, the harder it is for them to let me go in future. My dad in the other hand at least called me to find more info with a smile on his face. Then he walked off to let me do my own research. And there I was, busting my ass for hours, doing research to my possible new future. Asked around for advice.
It was much later when I was quite happy to have my fathers support when he suddenly turn to me and said: "NO!". My heart sunk beneath the floor and into the depths of the Earth at that instant. I had a whole lot brighter future, and within a second turned to darkness. I asked him for any logical reason behind the turndown. He hesitated and then said UMK is not a good university. Well, no doubt UMK is just 2 years old, but how could they judge the uni just because its new. Its preposterous!! A possible reason why they did not let me go is because its too far. All the way up North..
The worst part of all is, its my dad's bday today too, I wouldn't want to upset him by arguing with him. I had to respect his decision on that day, unlucky me. And yet, the deadline to accept this offer is 4 days away, 14th July. Should I waste my future over Respect? or should I get my ass over there and argue my terms now? I still have papers I have to certify and things I have to buy. Prepare myself for a brighter future.
And why am I still wasting time here. I should be out there, busting my ass to find more info to furthur convince my dad, that this Uni is not useless. And neither am I. God be with me, cause I know they aren't.
~B