My failure haunts me every time I think about it. I guess it isn't easy to forget about things, especially when I tried to overcome the fears I have. I can't cope with this failure. Just need a shoulder to cry on but yet no one to turn to. The people that I used to trust probably don't trust me any more, don't care about me any more. It's hurtful to see this happen, but its just out of my hands. Suffering in silence is not the best choice, but its the only one I have. I guess a lot of things will change, its the only way to cope with everything that has happened. I'd most probably regret it, but that's the only choice I have. Just hurtful to be an outcast. Guess I don't matter any more.